Mick (Billy’s ex) took me to a club last night that has gay night only on Mondays. It was a very long drive out there, but the place seemed to be busy enough to warrant the $5 cover. The dance floor was filled with people almost all night, and the drinks were…well not watered down, but expensive.

I should point out that I am not much of a dancer, and I don’t typically drink “gay” drinks, but I did have an Appletini last night (that ran me $9!) I’m also not much of a club guy, or bar for that matter. I had an okay time, but it is always a bit depressing sitting there drinking while your friend is out dancing. Not a single guy came up and talked to me, and I ended up spending most of the night on twitter (twitter.com/closetedgaysf).

I guess I should try to go more often so that I can get used to being there, but I really don’t like the depression of sitting alone all night drinking over priced drinks. I don’t see the fun in it…..but that’s what gay guys do here…go out to the clubs. If I am ever to meet someone to have my first boyfriend I have to start expanding my searching from just online only.

P.S. I did see one (top) guy who has been over to my place 2x now. We talked for maybe 3 minutes, and didn’t see each other the rest of the night. Wouldn’t mind hosting him at my place again

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I guess sort of along the same lines that I can’t stand a lot of women…they just drive me insane sometimes. Last night I talked on yahoo with Mick (we hung out a few times and he is Billy’s off again on again ex). He told me that his current bf and him were on a break and that he was falling for Billy again.

These two are like a married couple who hate each other one week and can’t get enough of each other the next. In the end, they ultimately could end up together, but both of them are just too hot headed at times.

Well Billy even tried to set Mick and I up, and the first time we met we just sat and talked for hours. A few days later we went out for drinks, pool, and back to his place and slept together (yes like that). We haven’t seen each other much since, except at Billy’s party a few weeks ago.

Last night like I said before he told me he was falling for Billy again, which good for those two…Today Billy asks me out of the blue if I had been in a hot tub recently. First I think, is he trying to see if I want to go somewhere and hot tub. Secondly, I am thinking wtf did he hear some rumor that isn’t true about me? What was going on? I tried to ask him why he asked, and then I remembered that Mick has a hut tub.

Okay, so I go to Mick and am like (via text all of this happens), why does Billy think we hot-tubbed together? He says that Billy doesn’t….and procedes to ask Billy why I would ask something like that.

This threw Billy off the deep end…and for what? I was just trying to find out the nature of the question. He out of no where sends me these texts:

Why the fuck did you say anything to mick? God…

Ive asked you before to keep what we talk about between us. I cant trust you anymore

Um….I was a bit thrown that he would get so upset about me asking Mick (the only person I know in California with a hot tub) why in the world Billy is asking about hot tubs….

Now Billy has said that he will never send me a message again. That’s it? The only real friend I’ve made so far here won’t ever talk to me b/c I wanted to know what was up with the hot tub ? I just can’t stand gay guys sometimes…the tiniest thing sets them off.

Mick assures me that Billy will come around, but if he doesn’t in a few days, I don’t know what I am going to do…I literally was almost in tears today (great now I sound like one of the same type of guys  I am writing about) but it is very difficult to make friends for me, and to have it all gone over some innocent thing….it really huts.

I’m not sure how many of you that are reading this have tried to hook up on sites like Craigslist, A4A, Manhunt and alike, but I’ve found that quite often you can reply to tons of ads and only get a few people who respond. Various reasons, they already hooked up, not horny anymore, busy, didn’t like your stats/pic, etc. Sometimes you never will find out why that seemingly perfect person who wrote that amazing profile never got back to you…. :-/

That being said, I got an email from a guy I emailed nearly 3 weeks ago last night. Ironically I was already on the way to a trick who was a bottom, and it is rare that I get to top, so I figured this guy could wait an hour or so. When I was done (and he was REALLY tight), I emailed this guy back after the number he emailed didn’t work.

It was a simple typo (which was really good to hear because that meant it wasn’t some form email he was replying to people with) and he sent me his home line and cell number. I called him and we talked for a while. I made it home and he asked if I wanted to hang out sometime. I said I was free tonight… He was said he was a bit stoned, but would be up for hanging out if we wanted to….uh oh…not another stoner.

Here is where I am not telling you the whole story….below is his picture…one of many he sent.

He could of been the leader of an entire drug cartel, but with that body there was no way I was saying no. So I got his address, and it was a good 20 minute drive. I headed out. Turned out when I got there that I was a bit confused with what he said, and we couldn’t play at his place, and he thought I was there to pick him up….6 pack abs….okay whatever I don’t care.

When I saw him, he was even more in shape and ripped then the picture. Tall, short hair, cute jeans jacket cutoff….faint. He got in my car and we headed back to my place. I didn’t even notice the backpack he had with him till later in the evening.

We got home and talked all the way there. Once we got home we hopped into bed and talked for a while longer till he said, “So you wanna make out?” HELL YES! Then he does something amazing, he asks if I want him to brush his teeth so I don’t taste the smoke (b/c he smokes cigs and weed). OMG hot and considerate? He brushed his teeth and we made out with little taste of smoke.

Oh, here’s where I mention that he had Trojan XL condoms with him….and they were tight on him. I licked and kissed nearly every inch of his body. Feeling those rock hard abs was amazing. Things progressed as they normally do in bed, and I asked as he was having trouble with the size of the condoms if he was clean.

HE WASN’T!

Yikes, red flag! He said he was HIV positive and had just found out 3 months ago. Poor kid 22 years old, amazingly hot and now has this hanging over him for the rest of his life. Well I always play safe, and made sure he was able to get the condom on properly, and well….

Afterwards he wanted to smoke, and asked if I could bring out a blanket as it was cold outside at round 2:30am when we were finished. We both snuggled under the blanket rubbing each other while he smoked. It was really amazing. He kept saying how cute I was and how he wanted a regular thing, and how the first time is always awkward, but as we get to know each other more it will become even more relaxed and enjoyable.

We went back inside and back into bed. He spent the night and I ran him home in the morning. We talked about our plans for the week, and we are both free Saturday night. Made plans to have him spend the night then, and have some more fun, but also hang out and get to know each other a little more.

We kissed for what seemed like an eternity as I dropped him off (which was a good 10 minutes at least).

We will see what happens Saturday. Billy is dumbfounded and told me he has never had a guy with a body like that.  Billy immediadetly asked if he was into a 3-way, and since Billy is having a pot luck Saturday night (he just told me about it today) this new boy and myself might go together and ask him there.

Well that is the end of the story of one of the greatest nights of my life. BTW my room mate this morning said I was being a little too loud last night. I should of told him that he should try being quiet when a dick in an XL condom gives him a good deep dicking (My room mate is straight and probably didn’t know till last night that I am gay). Ironically I thought we were quite quiet, especially considering how loud “Across the street guy” likes to be.

I can’t get enough of the tv show Weeds, but when it comes to the plant it self, well I am just not a fan. I’ve pretty much been “straight edge” (sorry for the pun) my entire life. I’ve never smoked, taken any drugs, or even excessively drank. I’m not even into poppers (they smell nasty), or any of the other recreation type drugs or activities that most a lot of gay guys are into.

I also haven’t ever really fooled around with a guy who has been smoking out, until this weekend. The guy was really beautiful in his pictures, as one of them is seen below, but his entire house was messy and smelled of pot. His bed was a few blankets on the floor of his room, and as much as he/we tried he couldn’t get his limp uncut floppy dick to do anything.

He blew me and I blasted a load in his face, and I guess he jerked off while blowing me b/c he did manage to cum, but I never saw him hard once. The worst part was his breath.  It was HORRIBLE. He wanted to kiss and make out for a while and after a few seconds, let alone a few minutes I was totally turned off and repulsed.

I thought I would post an excerpt of his reply to my ad, as I found the part in bold quite funny after the fact.

im 24, 6′2″ tall, 165 lbs, athletic build, brown hair, and have a rock hard 8 inch uncut cock…im pretty vers, and im really horny…im into sucking, fucking, j/o, making out, and pretty much anything within reason…heres some pics…hit me up if your interested…

It is too bad it didn’t work out, because as his body is in no where the condition it looks like in the picture, he still was cute enough. I just couldn’t deal with the smell and horrible taste, yuck.