Being that I am not really out, this past weekend I had my first real date with a guy. In the end I wouldn’t say it was officially called a date by either party, but it was very much implied. We were going to see an evening movie, but since he lives with his parents (he’s 20), they wanted him home during daylight to do some yard work. The movie ended up being a 2:30pm show time instead, and nothing really went the way I thought.

First I met him at the theater, and he got out of his car. He was not really much how he described himself, which lead me to finally understand the reason he “only had 1 picture.”

Here is a not to guys new to the world of hooking up/dating/etc online….ALL guys have more then one picture and if they say they don’t they are either A) really closeted and a nervous Nancy who somehow thinks you might know someone who knows someone who knows him or B) lying out their ass.

The guys in category A will typically use the keyword “discrete” among others. Like I was saying, when I saw him, I was immediately turned off. I was already at the theater, and there was no backing out now, so I decided to continue, but I hoped that he wouldn’t try anything. We saw Juno, and the movie was pretty good. The crowd on the other hand was terrible. There were about 15 teenage girls in the back row (one row behind us) that would not stop cackling the entire movie. Also, there was a women in her late 40’s with a gentleman who also talked nearly the entire movie.

I got up three times, the first to literally walk up there and tell the girls to, “SHUT UP!” The second and third I told management (or what seemed to be) that they needed to shut these hens up. No one ever came in to confront them, and I ended walking away with 4 free passes after the movie for my trouble.

Afterwards his dad called and he had to run off, which was perfectly fine with me, since I really didn’t want to spend any more time with him.

After that I hopped online and met up with a guy who lives a block and a half away from me. He came over and I can honestly say that I have never been fucked that long, and well ever. I have been fucked longer once when I first moved to the city, this guy with a HUGE 9 inch cock plowed my ass for what seemed like forever. Coincidently, that 9-incher guy literally said afterwards, “I thought I would properly welcome you to San Francisco.” Oh boy did he. The 1 1/2 block away guy and I talked for a while before and afterwards, so hopefully he will be back over for seconds. And yes the pics above and below this part of this post are the guy from just down the street.

That was around (let me check my Twitter for verification) 10pm that he came over. We then emailed for a while afterwards on email as well. I was cruising around CL after that and ended up talking with about 6 people at the same time…two of which had 2 guys there that wanted to fool around.

Billy, you may remember him from my Twitter posts, spent the night over my place in my bed about a week ago. He had just come back from a sex party outside of the city, and didn’t feel much like fooling around any more. His boyfriend got back into the country Friday after being gone for a while, so he has been “busy” the past few days. Anyway, Billy and I have become somewhat of friends. It is great to have someone to talk about my experiences, etc with.

He told me about one of the group of 2 guys. He said that one was a complete ass, and didn’t know much about the other. These were the 2 guys I was about to have over….so I decided against it. This really cute bottom boi decided to stop over after going to see another guy. He called me before and after the other guy, which lasted all of maybe 10 minutes.

He then drove over to my place and we went for about 2 hours. He said it well worth the drive and very sensual. We certainly had a good time, and he was right, it was very sensual. He really enjoyed having his ear lobe sucked…drove him completely wild. BTW that is him in the picture to the left.

He event texted me all the way home about how great of a time he had, etc. It is rare that I get to top, but I really enjoy it when I get the chance. He made mention of a next time, so we will see. I really enjoyed him, but he does have a nearly beard now, which I wasn’t so keen on.

Well that is how my first date when, and the hours following it. No hooking up on Sunday I was too busy with other things. I just emailed the guy down the road a little bit ago to see what his plans are like tonight….;-)

P.S. Always use condoms when engaging in sexual intercourse, I do.

I guess I should begin at the beginning as all good stories do. My name, well my name isn’t important…let’s just call me CG. I’m a young 20-something living in San Francisco, California. Moving to San Francisco was one of the best things that I could of done with my life. I feel free to be open about my sexuality and not scared that I will run into someone I know from back home.

As you might of noticed from the title of the site here, I am still in the closet to most of the people in my life. My family, friends, co-workers all are pretty much in the dark about me. I am hoping that this site is a way for me to be able to express myself and say the things that I want to say, but am too afraid to with the people I know. I am leaving the comments wide open right now (unless there is serious abuse) and I openly welcome any comments you have or stories you would like to share.

I am not your typical gay guy. I am pretty straight acting, and don’t have that cookie cutter gay look either. To be perfectly honest, I am bi. I enjoy women and who knows I would love to get married one day, but it just seems so much easier with guys.

(As you may notice I tend to venture off topic quickly…although I have never been diagnosed with ADD)

Like I said, I am not a super skinny, short hair’d typical gay guy. I have struggled with my weight my entire life, but never been obese or really overweight. I could stand to lose a few pounds, as I am sure we all could. I guess my weight has been an issue for me being gay as well….I am totally not attracted to older, fat, or ugly guys. Sort of ironic since I am packing on a few extra pounds. I also think that my weight issue is more in my head then anything else. No one I know calls me fat and tries to say that I’m crazy when I say so. That being said, I think the max “US Government” weight for my height maxes out at 175, and I am around 190-200.  I hope to join a gym as a New Year’s resolution, and stick to it.

Alright enough about that. I hope to be able to tell you about my experiences, get suggestions on what I should do in certain situations, and learn to be more free with my sexuality. I think this post is a bit long, so I will save more for the next time.

Oh btw, I just posted this on Craigslist (lots more on CL, Adam4Adam, and ManHunt in future posts) here in San Francisco:

Not sure exactly how I should word this, but I recently moved into the bay area and am looking for someone to hang out with. I recently started to hang out with a few gay friends before I moved out here, and would really like to make some in the area.

I work A LOT, but would like someone to be able to hang out with, grab a drink, talk about things that I can’t really discuss with others in my life. I am sort of closeted, but am working on that. Would like to find someone who understands where I am at, and can maybe offer advice, or who possibly is going through the same thing.

This isn’t really a “hook-up” type thing, although just to be honest that is all I really have done with guys…never had a boyfriend, but I would like to.

I’m not sure that this is the right place to post this, but I am just not that social when it comes to the club/bar scene, and everyone there seems so stuck up anyway. I want to meet someone and get to know them for who they are, not who they are on Friday and Saturday nights.

I’m on my phone all the time, so someone who likes to text message or email a lot would be cool, since I am always in communication that way.

A little about me quickly, I’m in my mid 20’s (and would really prefer someone around my age aka not over 30). I enjoy movies, going out and buying things, gadgets,  etc. I’m not really into the club scene, but I think that if I had someone to go with I would be a little bit more comfortable. I don’t do any drugs/smoke and am clean/HIV-. I do like to drink socially, but not excessively.

I also was going to join a gym, probably 24Hour Fitness, so if you had a membership that would be cool as well, and give us something to go do together and maintain accountability for the other one going.

That being said, I hope that I can find a few friends to be able to chill with and get to know better. Thanks