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Play safe, and get tested…

get a tune upIf you have been following me, you know that while I might have sex quite often with a variety of different guys (what gay guy doesn’t) I also am a proponent of playing safe every time. I follow this, and every time I have sex protection is used.

Turns out that isn’t always going to protect you 100% of the time. Sometimes things can be transmitted by touch…as I learned.

A little over a week or so ago, I went to get tested as I regularly do (as you should do). I felt like I would have clean bill of health, but even so it is always best to checkup every 3-6 months (if not more often if you can). They have rapid results for some of the tests, including HIV. My HIV results were negative as were all of my other rapid tests.

The other set of tests is determined by a urine sample, anal swab, and blood sample. The clinic I went to, and HIGHLY recommend to anyone in the San Francisco area, Magnet is a great facility and the people there were really informative and professional. When you leave, they tell you they won’t be calling you unless there is a positive test result.

linksMuch to my shock, I got a call from a number that wasn’t in my phone….it was Magnet. I was at work and tried to be discrete about the call once they called. I got so scared and thought maybe they were just calling to say nothing was wrong……..

Well I was wrong…my worst fear was presenting itself to me. The told me what I had and that I should come in ASAP to get medication. They offer the medication for free, and I go right after work and pick it up. I talked to the counselor who explained how it can happen, and that I was fortunate that I didn’t have any symptoms.

I was diagnosed with chlamydia in my anus, which apparently can be spread by contact with an infected partner with their sexual organ. Turns out the fooling around before you throw on that condom where they are rubbing their cock against your hole can lead to the spread of STD’s….I am going to be sure to be extra careful from now on.

They gave me a set of 14 pills (doxycycline hyclate) to be taken 2x per day with food. Here is where I was scared…was this permanent? Would I be stuck with this my entire life? If it was just in my anus would I be forced to top all the time?

The counselor at Magnet was great in answering all of these questions. Chlamydia, Gonorrhea, and others are consider the “common colds” of sexually active people. They are very easily cured and treatment is simple. You don’t always know you have it, and it is gone once you are finished with treatment.

happy homoNow you can get it again, so you do have to be sure to get tested regularly, and if you experience the symptoms, they can be quite painful and disgusting (I’ve been told and seen pics online researching this).

So, that is where I’ve been the past week. Tomorrow is my last day of treatment. I was put on as I like to call it “no bed” rest for a week…I haven’t been on Craigslist, A4A, Manhunt, or any other site in the past week. It has been good for me since I’m staying at the gym longer and catching up on sleep….but it also SUCKS!

Also, if you find out you have contracted an STD, you should contact any partners you have had since your last checkup; it is the responsible thing to do. Granted this is embarrassing, but you could also prevent the spreading of it to others that your ex partners come in contact with.

That being said….I will end the post as I titled it….Play safe, and get tested.

Josh…

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I know I posted before about Josh, but last night we hung out. He isn’t doing so well….he recently found out he has lymphoma cancer, his friend comitted suicide, and the gay couple he was staying with has pretty much kicked him out all within the past month. A lot to take in…over the past few nights we have been texting back and forth. He is apparently staying at a friends place right now, but she was out of town and couldn’t stay there last night, so I invited him over last night.

We had dinner and went back to my place. He was exhausted and we went to bed after talking for a little while. Because Josh is positive, I am very cautious if we play together….last night we didn’t (well we did jerk each other off at 4am when we both woke up).

I feel really bad for him though…he has been through a lot. Hopefully things will improve for him. I’m a bit sad today thinking about it.

BTW I have an update on Billy I might post later on as well…

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  • I guess sort of along the same lines that I can’t stand a lot of women…they just drive me insane sometimes. Last night I talked on yahoo with Mick (we hung out a few times and he is Billy’s off again on again ex). He told me that his current bf and him were on a break and that he was falling for Billy again.

    These two are like a married couple who hate each other one week and can’t get enough of each other the next. In the end, they ultimately could end up together, but both of them are just too hot headed at times.

    Well Billy even tried to set Mick and I up, and the first time we met we just sat and talked for hours. A few days later we went out for drinks, pool, and back to his place and slept together (yes like that). We haven’t seen each other much since, except at Billy’s party a few weeks ago.

    Last night like I said before he told me he was falling for Billy again, which good for those two…Today Billy asks me out of the blue if I had been in a hot tub recently. First I think, is he trying to see if I want to go somewhere and hot tub. Secondly, I am thinking wtf did he hear some rumor that isn’t true about me? What was going on? I tried to ask him why he asked, and then I remembered that Mick has a hut tub.

    Okay, so I go to Mick and am like (via text all of this happens), why does Billy think we hot-tubbed together? He says that Billy doesn’t….and procedes to ask Billy why I would ask something like that.

    This threw Billy off the deep end…and for what? I was just trying to find out the nature of the question. He out of no where sends me these texts:

    Why the fuck did you say anything to mick? God…

    Ive asked you before to keep what we talk about between us. I cant trust you anymore

    Um….I was a bit thrown that he would get so upset about me asking Mick (the only person I know in California with a hot tub) why in the world Billy is asking about hot tubs….

    Now Billy has said that he will never send me a message again. That’s it? The only real friend I’ve made so far here won’t ever talk to me b/c I wanted to know what was up with the hot tub ? I just can’t stand gay guys sometimes…the tiniest thing sets them off.

    Mick assures me that Billy will come around, but if he doesn’t in a few days, I don’t know what I am going to do…I literally was almost in tears today (great now I sound like one of the same type of guys  I am writing about) but it is very difficult to make friends for me, and to have it all gone over some innocent thing….it really huts.

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